Start loving yourself before regret what u did in past!

Actually i went to ward working for 3 week... now is 2nd week and i saw 1 patient who have HIV positive (he from Medan)...

First time he was admit because he had headache about 3 week if i don't get it wrong... First time i was him he was unconscious all the time... That time doctor still don't know the main reason cause headache so need collect specimens for investigation. At the end staff nurse collect blood send to laboratory... They found out that he was HIV patient (HIV positive).

I think that he know his own condition if i don't get it wrong. He was very depress until he wanted to go out from bed to show that he was normal. Even his relative and his own wife can't stop him for doing that. His brother was require staff nurse for giving him injection for let him calm down.

I can see by my own eye that he love his own wife very much yet he have to go away from them in future because of the HIV ( He just 30++ years old)...And i can see that he look like very regret that what he had did in past(Although i don't know how he get HIV)... I feel very sorry for his wife because of him. His wife still willing to take care of him and always sit beside him. The next time he was very confuse until he become a child when kindargarten. He always shout: " Teacher, don't beat me..." Yet we all can not do anything for him include his relative and especially his own lovely wife.

Guys, did you think about your own family and your beloved before you did anything that will effect your own health in future? I know most of people don't care because they don't bother about their own life and future. But, once you become ill you will start regret why you had begin doing this and that... And your parent and your beloved will suffer because of you... They have to spend their time and have to earn money for treat you ill... But once u get terminal illness for example ADIS, they can't doing anything even to save your life too!

So, guys u have to start step out and stop your bad behavior like smoking or having intercourse around with different girls. Now of course you can't feel anything but you had made yourself to go to hell and once it is the time go out, all people who beside with you can not do anything for you. Step 1 step for your own future, and your own beloved.

Is that call as RESPONSIBILITY??

Last Saturday my collage having monthly assembly. Our principal had teach us a new Character quality - Responsibility. She had explain the meaning of responsibility yet our seniors from semester 2 came out and present to make us get a clear picture of responsibility... Who knows......................................

 

26.3.2007 (Monday)

Before Mr Chin came in our classroom... the gal (lets us call her as X) suddenly throw our group Basic Nursing Science's Assigment to me (we had ask our Clinical Instructor - Ms Margaret check our Assigment before we pass it to Ms Ho...) and ask me to type the assigment... I ask the main reason why she dint type then she gave me an excuse that she busy doing her Moral Assigment last 2 days... (That time i was dont know that she had finish the Moral Assigment before the day).. After that i discuss with two of my friend and i had found out that she gave me an excuse....Zzzzzzzzzzzzzz..... Is that the responsibility that our principal mean??

 

*Back to Saturday*

After our Assembly we went back to our ward... Before we went for our lunch Ms Margaret suddenly take out our assigment and check for us... That time i thought i have to retype the assigment again(cause last time the assigment was type by me =) ) Then suddenly X grab the assigment from my hand and said she want to type and ask me to PRINT... That time i was wordless cause i can't understand Ms Margaret's handwriting @ @..... Ended up, What she did? Throw her duty to me and gave me an excuse... Just two day after assembly so fast she forget what character quality that our principal tought us...

To my dear friend - Alex Ch'ng

Dear Alex:

 

  It nice when u had msg me by using friendser... it make me surprise that u had suddenly send me a msg, and u wanted to apologize about the last case that had causes our friendship break immediately... Actually i had think whole the cases and i feel that also my fault. I already wanted to find u at Pacific since Tricia told me that u working over there.. And i had saw u with someone 1 day walking and when i chase u was disappear... And we had met when the MUET exam... I know myself that i doing bad thing like said that i dun know u, actually i had no face to face u since i'm the one who make both of us argue...

 

  And after that we had a date when my birthday, i had waiting u long time ago and i'm scare that i had making mistake that i had wait wrong place. But once i heard that u had sent to general hospital i was surprise ><".... I know u are healthy last time but i dun know what had happen to u during the day after our friendship break... And after this Saru told me that u feel very sad once our friendship break... i know this might be my fault to make u become like this... and now u become the person who lying on the bed... i feel very badly actually...

 

  Alex, this is not ur fault cause u had fail to met me. I went to read ur blog few days ago... It very sweet when i read it... Now the only thing i can do is just hope ur operation is success... I promise after this we shall meet again... And we celebrate my birthday together :)

My birthday

  15.3.2007 - This is the day which is my 19th birthday. Early morning i recieve the bomb from my classmate Sue Ling and after that recieve from my another friends that is Yuan Chao and Pei Ying.

 

  During the English class, suddenly Miss Chiew asking:" Is any one celebrete birthday" then many ppl immediately said out my name @ @... Scary LOLzz.. Miss Chiew still want all most of my classmate sing birthday song for me @ @(pai se lolz)...................

 

  After that i had prepare myself and waiting for my old friend. Suddenly he told me that he unable to make it... Actually he was admit in ward... His brain got something.... ><" (i wish that is noting happen to him)

Fall Sick =.="

9.3.2007

Today is my friend birthday... it seem she dint fell well(she fall sick actually) and i wish her..... actually i already feel that my throat not very well yesterday and today get running nose pula.... sigh....

 

Then i have to force myself go for clinical practice and doing bed bath for my patient.... After finish it, i can feel that my sick become worse and Fish Fish encourge me to see doctoc since we no need to pay... Oh well... i will think about it...

 

During the way to back to classroom, min min asking me that i got fever or not but i dun sure that either i got fever... Then she tell me that i got fever but i dun believe it ><".......... During take 5 rest at Mr Jamal class i asking my birthday friend that wan go see doctor or not and she agree with me.... ok then we go to see doctor during lunch time....

 

And after i see doctor... Wait for medicine i feel that my body abit hot then i asking my roomate Paw to feel that i'm having fever or not... And she say YES!! Oh My God.. i never tell doctor that i having fever.... *Faint*

 

After finish class, i immediately rush back my room and take my own tempeture... And it is the prove that i'm having fever... 37.6 degree celcius.... Sigh... i have to walk to shop and buy mee for myself... Walk half way i met Guan Guan.... and i have sucuss to buy my own mee by myself and walk back by myself (thx god... Lucky i dint faint halfway LOLZ)

 

Pei Pei invite me to cook mee together and we did it... After that i take a nap and finally sleep =.=.......

 

10.3.2007

Feel Well abit but i still got running nose...Zzzzzzzzzzzz i hate running nose...

Penang Gathering Trip 2

Actually we dint plan properly this time la... but cause we got transport it bring alot of benifit ^^ LOLZzzzzz (Max dun kill me plz :P)

 

9.00am - Saru, Jennifer and Chany reach my house. We walk to morning market and wait for bus

10.00am - Who know bus will arive at this time... ok at least better then no bus at all LOLz.....

10.30am - Reach Jeti. Take Ferry

11.00am - Take 1-1 bus to Tanjung Bunga.... need pay RM1.70 @ @... Zzz we dun know the prize the bus driver no need to scold us and said us like zao lo zzz..............

12.00pm - Reach 1-stop (Muahahaha Thx to Max cause last time he did bring me go 1-stop before so i remember abit....) and walk to Gurney~

12.15pm - YES!! FINALLY CAN REACH GURNEY BY OUR OWN LOLZ~~~~~~~~~~ (cause last time i lost my way to gurney and need they fatch me LOLZ... Just refer my last last blog ^^")

1.00pm - Ace kor arive... They wan take lunch at Nando but i perfer eat the other thing cause the price..... @ @....... After that follow my sis and Saru go eat McD ^^

2.00pm - Go buy Binkini for Serene LOLZzzz...

3.00pm - Go to 1-stop and play over there...

4.30pm - Ace kor leave, Max bring us go to Tanjung Bunga there eat Laksa ><"

6.00pm - Go to Farlim Game Free cafe play O2jam with Max and Chany @ @.... Saru play dota with my sis @ @... ish... Max so geng in O2jam one... always get cool and i always get good =.=...

7.30pm - Go Green Lane's McD.... enjoy eating and wait for Mystic...

8.30pm - Max send us back Jeti

9.15pm - ISH... Nearly can't get Bus cause they wan rest already... then Neko and Saru said:" HARRR!!!" SO LOUD then dun know y suddenly the bus driver change his mind and let just sit the bus @ @.......

10.00pm - Reach home @ @

Happy Chinese New Year~~~

Aiks... all ppl also know Chinese New Year = Children happy cause can collect ang pao again..... but actually they dun know the most headache is parent cause they have to pack ang pao for them LOLZzzzz.... and children never notice that actually give ang pao just look like exchange ang pao with another ppl = thier parent's own money..... =.=...................

 

How much i get? just little only not much la..... just get RM241 nia =.="

 

RM50 x2 = RM100

RM10 x 8 = RM80

RM5 x 5 = RM25

RM1 x 36 = RM36

 

Total = RM241

 

What i know is my father gave me RM50 and the other one is my grandma(if i dun get it wrong ><").......

Then some of them gave me RM10

And the rest gave RM4 lo

 

 

@ @ dun know y this year i get 1 ang pao that gave me RM12... wondering who gave me ><"

 

Oh ya forget about my Moral Studies teacher - Mr Chin gave me ang pao too... get RM2 ^^

 

Anyway wish u all Happy Chinese New Year~!